On the left of “Uncle Max”

Uncle Max is a novel by Chris Kenry. It is a slice-of-life sort of story, which is usually the form of gay novels I read. Though slice-of-life usually transforms into drama in most circles of any sort of fiction, where the drama of life is racketed up a thousandfold, this doesn’t seem like it. It’s funny, but it’s pretty consistently real. I’ve only read about twenty pages, but it seems like that sort of story.

What I was really trying to do was read “Kant’s Conception of Inner Value” by Oliver Sensen. It’s interesting enough, legible, legible as how broccoli with cheese is edible, which it is, but who wants to read broccoli with cheese, you know what I mean? No, oh well.

Now, as I write this, I am kicking my foot. That’s right, one of my feet is straddling the other, kicking its toes. The other foot, the left, doesn’t have as much dexterity, and would never be able to get revenge. I am restless,  a restlessness that can only be healed by Skyrim or some other game. I would say the new game Resident Evil 6, but I’m truly planning on buying, and beating, that this winter break, with family, because I know it will be easier with someone else. Truly, the AIs for your partners are amazing now. Usually, if your partner is AI (such as in Resident Evil Revelations) the enemies are nigh unbeatable unless you are the one doing the mowing down- of course, what’s the use of the AI then other than exposition and plot crops?

Some ‘fans’ are outraged at the way the series had gone. I agree that it is no longer very creepy or anything (well, Leon’s route is fucking dark and I don’t know when the zombies are going to wake up… and part of it is on a freakin’ college campus where everyone just breathed fumes, how scary is that?!), but I’m a, never thought I’d say it, true fan. I’ll play RE no matter what format it’s going to take. I mean, some of these ‘fans’ even said, “I can’t support/buy the game anymore. It is finished.”

Um… You’re no longer a fan then. You were a fan, and now you’re not. You can say you were a fan of the ‘true RE’ or whatever if you need your elitist kick, but you don’t like it anymore, how can you be a true fan?

Same goes for Final Fantasy. I liked 13 (and 13-2). Actually, the only ones I didn’t like, to play, that is, was 10-2 and 12. I’m not counting any of the weird ones, just the turn-based or almost-turned-based, which I counted 13 as, lol. I will always give FF a benefit of the doubt, and will try all their games, because I’m a fan.

I want to play Skyrim.

And I want to read a massive yaoi story, manga or anime style. I don’t really care for looks as long as it’s good- and if it is long, it’s probably good for me. If you don’t know what yaoi is, I don’t really know how you got here, but it’s, for me, the Japanese style of male on male(s) relationships. Opposite of yuri.

I’ve gotten out of touch with some yaoi stories- Crimson Spell and Viewfinder by Ayano Yamane for one- because I don’t know how to get them. I want to pay for them.

And I want my damn money! I don’t really need it, and I’m getting a job… But I want the check so badly… so much money…

And that put me on the Teahouse Tour, which has now filled up, just as I checked. I wanna cry. I wanted that money for that purpose and now it is too late.

“Madness” by Muse is phenomenal.

That’s all for now.

At the table in the common room

I wanted to take this time to reply to the reviews from the end of “A Maléan Gem”. And then to explain my weird tags for this post.

Everywhere und Nowhere		2012-09-28
I hate to complain or naysay, but that last chapter felt rushed. you mentioned you had written more but deemed it unneccesary. i think it may have helped. I havnt had any problems with your writing style, but there were several sections on this chapter I needed to reread in order to grasp properly, and I feel more elaboration could have been done for the parents. They were long awaited from the last chapter, and it still feels…anticlimatic to explain them. Very much looking forward to your next piece and hope you dont misunderstand my criticism. I LOVE your stories.

Well, that looks cool. I just wanted to copy the text but this is far better. Anywho…Please complain and naysay. I love to write better. Right now, I’m in a writing class and have recently had a piece reviewed where mostly everyone had the exact same constructive criticism. Too many characters, and felt rushed- even the needing to reread and needed more elaboration. I felt the anticlimacticness as well. I was disappointed, but I didn’t want to bombard the reader… but they had been waiting for a while XD I will add more chapters to “Gem” as time goes on. Epilogues out the ears they will be.

I feel this may be a problem for “Cages”. I have a lot of characters; I wonder if I can count on you for when things feel too slow or too fast? :p

ILoveWyatt		2012-09-29
I loved this story so much! Sorry for not reviewing those other few chapters. I just didn’t know that you updated the story.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! :D Don’t worry about it. You were one of the few who consistently reviewed, even if it was the same phrase or same type or whatever. You knew what it meant to me and you decided to help me feel it nearly every time I posted a chapter. Thank you. I have your email, and I’ve been emailing… Is the trunks thing still your email?

Thanks to all who reviewed “Gem”: ILoveWyatt (YAY!), Everywhere und Nowhere, nivell (alot), sunni, myrt(alot), Sunao Tsuji (some?), sierra, Silver (maybe!), kylee (alot), emz, Mick, Mina, DoeEyedSamurai, tj, Plume angelique, MoonChakra, Mikki Senpai (:DDDD), Aromanight, Roseykins (alot), BijouDuMon, mizuki, Funeral Roses, Vivi, Melsa, anxiouslyawaitingupdate, MustLove_PrettyBoys, James, Anon(s), bunnicle, blueskies, kissedbymidnight (alot), js (tj?), lividfire, Mahou Makai, and sardo.

So, around 36 people made their feelings known. Thank you so much; it’s really picked me up over the time of writing Gem. With you guys’ help there are 113 reviews and 16,555 hits so far. Thank you, thank you.

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Malé is about hermaphrodites with, and this is largely generalized (like when we say the human race is selfish when there is a large range of selfishness among the 7 billion plus humans on Earth), what Earthlings mostly identify as male. That’s why I call it mpreg and put slash, gay, and malexmale.

But this has been bothering me. Calling these hermaphrodites ‘he’ and ‘him’ and having ‘his’ things. It’s not like a planet doesn’t need females or something. There are actually characters that I had to constantly correct from calling them ‘she’ and giving ‘her’ ‘her’ right pronoun- Ashelee and Omni, for example. Because hermaphrodites, from what I read and heard from hermaphrodites that identify themselves as such- It’s not just being neither or both staple genders, or, sometimes, it’s absolutely not being neither or both, it’s being something completely different, a completely different gender, and I’m more on line with that.

But the fact that they have penises make people call them ‘he’, when in fact only ‘she’ can give birth, and they can do that too. Every last one of them. But I tried writing a story using only gender neutral words or pronouns that envision both sexes (which, as I said before, is sometimes an absolute no-no). For the latter, the problem above arose. Gender neutral mode made for weird sex scenes and not very good first-person, so I opted for just using ‘he’, which leads me to put malexmale, gay, yaoi, slash, and mPreg- though they are hermaphrodites.

Obviously, we have been equipped to being stuck to social norms of giving mostly everyone a specific gender out of two. It kind of sucks for those who feel in between either physically or mentally. Mentally, for myself, though my high libido and hairiness might be proving the other as well. I’m not saying I’m undecided or anything, but I am saying that I have desires and physical features that most people identify with males. I’m pansexual to a painful degree, so as that I have so many options for people that I can’t choose just one, or I can’t find anyone who is willing to share, lol.

A friend of mine, who really likes (not consciously, of course) to categorize gender, especially of the male kind, says, what’s wrong with a girl liking guy things or being more like a guy?

Well, of course, when one attributes my liking games or pornography as a male thing when I am physically completely and utterly female, or when one attributes unlikable male qualities to the definition of maleness, when a large part of me is identifying with maleness, well, it makes me feel guilty. Or when someone says I am strong like a guy? No! I’m strong like a girl! I am a female, that’s as strong as I will ever be.

And so when I attribute male emotions or physicality to these hermaphrodites, I feel like I’m doing them a disservice. I do my best to be gender neutral other than addressing, but sometimes I have to be careful to not fall in the trap of categorizing them too much.

Just to let everyone know, they have wide hips and breast like female Earthlings. If it ever has an animated feature or drawings, I will add that. It’s important. And they aren’t dickgirls!

Futanari was originally for hermaphrodites in the Japanese language but has become fetishistic dickgirls. Well, you might say that futanari identifies with females and Maléans identify with males- promising argument. However, my hermaphrodites are aliens that have been categorized (by myself and any others) and  we/they are largely aware of the ambiguity and complexity. Futanari girls, if you haven’t seen any hentai material, is largely a girl who finds herself with a dick without much dilemma other than really good sex. Plus, you can see how my personal problems is seeping largely into my made-up world, while futanari girls (and I have to say girls because it is hardly the other way around- mainly because guys already have both penises and anuses) are fap material- they hardly fuck guys but other futanari girls. Not the same.

Well, then, why have Maléans with breasts? Evolution, my dears. In the beginning years of human life on the planet, they needed some way to feed their young. But these people have evolved enough to get rid of breasts and just grow more quickly inside the womb. But the breasts still remain like appendixes and gall bladders.

Now, I’m off to write a real essay XD

On a chair in my dorm

So, I posted the first chapter of “The  Maléan Cages” on adultfanfiction: http://original.adultfanfiction.net/story.php?no=600105706  , last night. It’s one of those long fantasy stories with a lot of characters, but I have it organized in what some people may think as a lazy way. It’s not a surprise or anything, so here goes: Each of the twenty will have their own section of a five-section chapter, so every five chapters we cover all of the twenty. I say five because someone goes twice, in an interlude chapter, that says what happens on Pluck. I’m trying to get it so that everyone gets a fair share, but, hey, life isn’t fair, and some are going to have it a lot easier than others. So, I may grant myself exclusion from this endeavor (though I’ve been doing pretty well so far)

I have done the outlines for “Cages” and the character development, and the plots on the macro level, and now plots of the micro level, the chapter-by-chapter basis. That is where things get tricky. With twenty different characters, it might seem like a lot, but if you’ve read any of my stories (probably, if you’re following me on WordPress, you haven’t, lol- who are you people? Thanks for following!) I’ve always had a lot of people, and I tend to follow pretty well. And with the dump of notes of have for “Cages”, it’s unlikely I’ll get lost.

I have ten or twelve chapters ready for publishing. But I’ll be patient and wait until next week to reply to reviews and post another chapter. Since last night, I’ve had (last time I checked) 223 views. Do you know how happy that makes me?

*****

Also, there are people following my blog. I don’t think I know any of you, but thanks for following. I can’t find who is following because I just use this to post the… tag-related things… but I do get emails. Hopefully, readers of my stories will also follow me and see what’s up!

And now breakfast. I’ve realized that writing words is not the same as eating food. Oh, well.

The Beginning?

An original piece of fiction!? Never in my life! I mean, I’ve tried writing some several times but they never took off, you know? This one is going through my mind like a speeding car, I just can’t seem to catch up unless I write it down. So I’mma try to write it down and maybe…. Maybe I’ll publish it, but, as usual, I don’t think anyone would like it all that much. I mean, who out there actually reviews the stuff they read anymore? Or maybe everyone is trying to write, that’s the problem, lol.

-Seasons are nonexistent, the weather is told by the stars (astrology)

-Countries, states, cities etc. are all mixed up. For example, Tokyo is near Paris where Nashville, Tennessee is, which explains the whereabouts of Li Riyuu, Didier Roberts, and Cervantes Bloom.

6 PEOPLE!:

(1)Damien Bloom+= School (Nashville) Arc: A demon prince working to restore his power over his kingdom in Hell. he needs toen souls to make a deal with a stronger devil.

He gets a list only of names, and has to use expensive or otherwise costly ways to get them together.

At first he only fucks them, pretends to be concerned for their worries

As time goes by, he begins to like the boys, especially Lilihan.

Past:      His mother has died recently.

Being a distant relative of Satan, he grew up living a royal life, used to all the power, money, sex and whatever else he fancied. He inherited all sorts of gems, magical artifiacts, and gizmos from the father he killed when younger. He was told by his mother to do this. . He has kept these devices in order to find his five.

OTHER PEOPLE:

Chaos (Bloom): Beast Damien keeps on a leash.

Toki Roberts: African messenger for Damien, helps finds the others, particularly Dante

You see, I may be way over my head. I need to let this stew for a while.