The World Ends With Me

It’s not often that I read some quality male/male fantasy BDSM. I have to wade through some questionable products! Even less do I find quality hardcore fantasy BDSM with many avenues to explore.

Even less do I find hardcore fantasy BDSM adventures with horror elements.

So I have written my own, and will continue to do so.

For my original works (and crappy hidden fanfiction drafts), I now have a Patreon !

I’ve been told for years to do things I often talk about, and writing has always, always, always been an important conversation. I have always been an amateur for writing.

And since you’re here, you must be a wee bit curious about my writing, yea? Why don’tcha become a Curious Cat?

If you’re here because you’re a Master Fan, I want to explain that I want people who have been following me for years or who have come across this place for the halibut to see it as I wanted it to be seen.

Alright! To the Patreon! If you are not an adult, do not bother! Not for the faint of heart. Like, I’m truly, utterly serious about this. Please be careful!

What you may not know, is that Patreon requires moolah. One buck is the least of them, and you get a few snapshots. Five-ish posts so far, until I get everything organized, and I’ll prolly add more for the $1. It’s a lotta writing, and I write fast, but man, I love it. I want to do it more and more and more and more!

Now, there is a way to connect Patreon and WordPress and I can’t figure it out because I’m dizzy with trying to figure it out, and I think it’s because I don’t have a business account and the two aren’t clicking. Am I right? Help me!

So instead, I’m doing it the hard way. One by one. Intro to the timeline. Well. It’s the only timeline for my posts on Patreon.

• The Warning

  The Warning is to warn some of my tamer readers. For example, if the only fanfiction you read was from Archive of Our Own, hahahahahaha, and you find some of my characters drinking the blood of their lovers and not-so-much lovers, honestly punishing their lovers for being ‘bad’, the drive to violence. I like violence. Not sure why. Lol, naw, I know why.

• A Maléan New Year (OV)

  A Maléan New Year is what I decided to be my first post because I’m fucking nuts and why did I choose it? It’s confusing! But I can’t bring myself to take it away. It’s like how someone makes a hard video game and they’re like, I’m not making it any easier! So on and so forth.

• A Start (V)

  A Start proves to me that I CAN write about something that is not Malé as a original bit. Writing something original back in high school, after years of fanfiction, made me a bit nervous. I didn’t believe in myself at all, and I never published this.
• A Maléan Mount (OV)

  A Maléan Mount was a wet dream come true. No, seriously, there are some ideas that I need to squeeze out as soon as possible. It’s like a brain arousal all the way to a brain orgasm. Sometimes it switches to physical although I try hard, very hard, to not let it become physical. Because there is no going back after a physical O. It’s a mental thing that needs a lot more explanation. So go read some porn! It’ll be fun.
• A Maléan Demon (OV)

  A Maléan Demon is truly the beginning of everything. I started writing this in early 2008- yes, I was 17, let’s ignore that for now. I do not recommend it, I do not support minors getting anywhere near my site, because most 17-year-olds aren’t like how I used to be…. Which is not much different from what I am now… This shit gets violent and crazy and I tried to write as much sex possible, but then I kept having, like, plot come up. So annoying. Just write PORN, stay on topic! Dicks! Ass! Spankings!
• A Maléan Gem (OV)

  A Maléan Gem is the sequel to Demon. I was actually writing the beginning of this while writing the end of Demon. And in the middle of writing this I wrote New Year and Mount. Even now, I’m writing about ten things. But I’m like, gotta finish that, gotta finish that, really gotta finish all that.
• A Maléan Gem – 2 (OV)

  Chapter 2 of Gem reminds me of my childhood. That would make sense because… Well. A lot of this is certainly based on my childhood. Maybe that’s the main reason I want to rewrite it all. Going to college really opened my eyes to the possibilities of the world, and I realized I could leave a lot of my old worries behind instead of writing it into my stories.
• A Maléan Demon – 2 (OV)

  Chapter 2 of Demon was fun. I spent a whole day looking up all the courtroom jargon and realizing what ‘leading’ actually meant and what ‘badgering’ really meant. It’s still kind of hard to think about in exact examples.
• A Maléan Demon – 3 (OV)

  I had forgotten all about Chapter 3, so when I read it again, I honestly had no idea what was going to happen. It’s pretty weird to know I had written something, but have not the slightest recollection of its history.
• A Maléan Gem – 3 (OV)

  Chapter 3 covers Dante’s auction. I have awful fatshaming in here, and it’s not entirely a narrative thing :c I wonder if any of my readers felt put off because of such things. I don’t feel this way anymore, but it’s a draft, and I have learned.
• A Maléan Gem – 4 (OV)

  Chapter 4 where the horror elements rear their heads and I realized, reading nearly a decade later, that they are everywhere. I simply love a scary story, even in my fantasy romance!
• A Maléan Demon – 4 (OV)

  Chapter 4 is where things get hectic. The story starts rolling, and, again, years later, I realized how I did this on purpose. The lull is taken up with sex, or violence.
• A Maléan Demon – 5 (OV)

  Chapter 5 is when I really feel myself getting on that roll. The creative juices are flowing. The colors are incredibly bright!
• A Maléan Gem – 5 (OV)

  Chapter 5, and I realized just how seamless Dante had entered his adult life into slavery- but with a personality quite incongruous to it.
• A Maléan Demon – 6 to 24 (OV)

  The rest of the original version of A Maléan Demon has been up there for a few days, but I haven’t remembered to update my WordPress. I updated my twitter and tumblr at the same time, but man is it hard to remember all the social media. I haven’t been keeping up with the chatrooms and group pages. Ah well. The rest of Demon! In all it’s sex and violence and power exchange and fantasy and adventure! With the most unreliable narrator! I have called these stories OV drafts, but it’s not as if there will be a direct correction. I’ll let you know what replaces Demon and Gem!
• A Maléan Gem – 6 to 23 (OV)

  The rest of the original version of A Maléan Gem has also been up for a few days before updating here. I felt Gem was a lot more succinct, as what I was going for, but on the flip side, it has less sex and violence, which is not exactly what I was going for. It’s as if I promised myself a specific story and I keep disappointing myself. At the time I originally published this on websites that allowed original fiction, the people who emailed me or left reviews liked it better. So at least I wasn’t disappointing them!
• Omega Testing – 1

  Omega Testing came about from a specific idea that kept rolling around in my head. When I put it onto paper, I was like, I like it. Then I wrote some more and plot started getting in the way. It was supposed to be some gritty porn story, but then I had actual ideas that needed to be thought out. I had to go back and change everything. So Yves is the MC living in a world where slavery is a natural punishment, replacing most sentences of imprisonment, and our lovely MC gets the most unnatural conviction. Merely because of his good looks, he avoids a death sentence. Luckily, he ain’t just a pretty face, and his masters eventually find him as more of a partner than a plaything. As you can see, this is not a draft. It doesn’t have the right layout, but it’s what is happening for the future. Woo!
• Omega Testing – 2 to 5

  Omega Testing 2 to 5 is me trying to separate parts of the story by tiers, because that’s how it works. It’s not like I have any patrons, but I’ll keep working on all of it for that future first person wanting to take the first step. Ha. I’ll probably have to hire an artist before then. Unfortunately, my money is… not like that.
• Omega Testing – 6, 7, 8

  Omega Testing 6, 7, 8 is written in this format to show that it’s unfinished and that I plan on finishing it. This is where I start planting more seeds to exponentially complicate the plot because that’s what my mind thought should be and it’s hard to fight my own mind.
• The Earliest Written Ideas

  These earliest ideas… I remember sitting down to write it on Notepad because, out of nowhere, I remembered that I forgot a lot of stuff. And it wasn’t that I remembered what I forgot, I just remembered THAT I forgot. And so I started writing all this to explain, write down terms and ideas and what I truly wanted at the beginning of my original fiction adventure. Karkaza (what I now call the ‘alphas’ of my universe) was an actual name of a person, and Abbrivia was the original name of Malé. Just… Stuff like that… I have completely forgotten. I had to read everything and I was like, holy shit, was that really the original plan??? That’s stupid! But I still have real stupid ideas, but if they are fun enough or sexy enough, I totes keep it.